Monday, July 13, 2009

First let me say how much I appreciate you all for giving me a virtual pat on the back. It helped a great deal. It also enabled me to go and speak to my husband (he has not yet earned his Dh moniker back yet) about how I was feeling. I was able to approach the subject without tears or attitude. Which is extremely important if I really want him to hear what I say. He was good enough to reiterate his dedication to helping me out as far as responsibilities and our plans to move forward instead of being stagnate here. It was a short conversation but I felt he meant what he said and he said it in front of The Boy. Which might seem inconsequential, but it means a great deal to him if he makes assurances in front of The Boy and then not carry through on them.

So I feel a little better today. It also helps that it's been raining on and off all day. I like this weather much better than hot weather. I always feel like I'm melting in hot weather. Plus it makes everyone cranky around here.

I did forget to mention something I did do for myself recently. Background info first; My DFaN went and cut off her hair. It looks really cute on her and it looks different from anyone here. She kept saying how she got to looking at all the women here and everyone seemed to have the same hair style. Long, fairly straight, and either worn down or up in a ponytail. The same way I was wearing my hair. On the Fourth of July she decided to take a photo of herself and her oldest daughter. I wish I had a copy of it, but unfortunately I didn't get one. Anyway, she then decided to get a photo of the two of of us. I hate my photo taken. As I have said before I never look like I think I do, or how I look in the mirror. But seeing that photo (on her digital camera) I saw my hair and made the decision to cut it. Luckily my Mum used to be a beautician and was able to cut my hair as per my DFaN's suggestion. Now I don't have a before photo, yep that is still with my DFaN, but I asked my husband to take a photo of me today with my new Do. I like it. It's feels oodles better. It was funny after I got my hair cut I was at the market and looked at all the females. They all had the same hair style as my DFaN had mentioned. I was so relieved to have a different look.

Ok so that is the best one I could come up with. No that's not a wart on my nose, it's my nose ring/stud. Yes I did pierce my nose. I'm crazy like dat.